...Sunday evening: Processing time....

1) ...ouch. that stings. i don't understand what this is. it's like eternal gray. zero clarity.

2) last night was pretty fun. a house party, then a dance party. a/v never lets me down.

3) tomorrow is work. 9-7:30. bed early tonight. the final phase of party-repair.

4) i am foolish in so many ways. my decision making skills are questionable at best. i dislike my father. i dislike every trait he passed to me. my mother, the one who was ill on paper, gave me my only positive qualities. even her illness is nore truthful than anything my father ever offered.

5) don't ever get the appetizers at darrells. only get the entrees. wow. sick.

6) it's just like this series of exchanges, of blows, with no appreciative outcome. no change. no growth. stale-mate. people's hearts and minds run at different speeds. you can not jump start a person. they will get there in their own due time. the question is, will your speedy little heart still be treading? or have crossed the channel long ago?